Truth is, I'm a sinner. I try and do well. To be well, and to serve well.
Truth is, I fail. I don't always let God radiate through my life as I should because
Truth is, the devil is fighting for my soul just as hard as my Lord is. There is a battle being waged over me, and truth is, I don't always fight for Christ. I make mistakes, and I screw up, but truth is I'm still trying. I am striving for holiness, to be the woman that God wants me to be, but truth is it's not easy. It is hard. Its the hardest thing of my life, to be a woman of faith and not a woman of this world. Truth is sometimes I get discouraged and sometimes I settle for things that are easy because truth is, whats worth fighting for is far from easy. But this earth is not where my life ends, and this earth is not where I want to stay. Truth is when this life is over, I want to be with Christ forever, and truth is, I want you there with me. I am fighting the ways of this world for a life that I know is worth it, but truth is, sometimes I forget that. Though I know I cannot do it alone, sometimes I try. Truth is, I need you. Truth is I need to surround myself with people who want these same things. I need to be filled with people who share in this same revelation. Do you know these truths? Will you fight with me?
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Friday, January 21, 2011
One Day at a Time
Lets take one day at a time.
One moment at a time.
Surround yourself with good, and keep your focus.
Be around people who want you to be
the best version of yourself.
Dont think too much,
dont overanalyze.
When you learn from rough stuff
it no longer becomes a mistake
but a lesson.
I'm working on learning this lesson..
its not exactly easy.
But its worth it.
Guard your heart,
protect it.
Stand for what you believe in.
Stand strong and dont waiver.
Be faithful.
Be courageous.
Fear the Lord.
With faith, all things are possible.
We can overcome, we can learn.,
we can grow.
Step by step living each day on the earth
as it may be our last.
One moment at a time.
Surround yourself with good, and keep your focus.
Be around people who want you to be
the best version of yourself.
Dont think too much,
dont overanalyze.
When you learn from rough stuff
it no longer becomes a mistake
but a lesson.
I'm working on learning this lesson..
its not exactly easy.
But its worth it.
Guard your heart,
protect it.
Stand for what you believe in.
Stand strong and dont waiver.
Be faithful.
Be courageous.
Fear the Lord.
With faith, all things are possible.
We can overcome, we can learn.,
we can grow.
Step by step living each day on the earth
as it may be our last.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Livin It
I've always been the girl that said Life is too short to count calories. Which, I still believe is true.
However, within the last couple weeks God has definitely hit me over the head with a bat and made me realize so many new things. One of them being the fact that this body is not mine- it was a gift to me, given at a very high cost. And when I am through in this life, I do not get to keep it. This body is not my own...and it is a temple of the holy spirit. Scripture tells me so.
I spend 3$ per gallon of gas to put into my car. A 1998 Dodge stratus. I put better food in her than I do for myself. This does not make sense.
So, I am making a change. In an effort to feel better, I firmly resolve to be contentious of the foods I am eating and if they will give my body energy. I am working out on a daily basis, and am enrolled in a Zumba class.
One day....I will be the girl that says "Zumba changed my life"...you watch.
This is all a work in progress. Results dont come right away. But in the long run- its worth it.I am excited to see what the future hold for me!
Its time to live life...and live it to the fullest.
However, within the last couple weeks God has definitely hit me over the head with a bat and made me realize so many new things. One of them being the fact that this body is not mine- it was a gift to me, given at a very high cost. And when I am through in this life, I do not get to keep it. This body is not my own...and it is a temple of the holy spirit. Scripture tells me so.
I spend 3$ per gallon of gas to put into my car. A 1998 Dodge stratus. I put better food in her than I do for myself. This does not make sense.
So, I am making a change. In an effort to feel better, I firmly resolve to be contentious of the foods I am eating and if they will give my body energy. I am working out on a daily basis, and am enrolled in a Zumba class.
One day....I will be the girl that says "Zumba changed my life"...you watch.
This is all a work in progress. Results dont come right away. But in the long run- its worth it.I am excited to see what the future hold for me!
Its time to live life...and live it to the fullest.
Beauty,
Needless to say, the last few days have been nothing but a whirlwind of emotion, confusion, and miscommunication between my heart and my brain. They have not been on the same wavelength lately.
My heart has been searching for love, and yearning to give it away. I have invested my heart in areas I should not have. My brain knows what is good for me, what God wants for me. But for some reason, my heart has thought otherwise.
My Big mamma, my gorgeous Bethany Hill came into my room last night and said some of the most profound words. Beauty is not something we always can see. Sometimes true beauty is a feeling. And sometimes we need people in our life to help us realize this. There are so many people in my life that God has blessed me with that allow me to see what is true beauty, and allow me to see that within myself. I cannot say thank you enough.
Here I sit..humbled my God's love for me. I had a phenomenal weekend away, on retreat, at a fellowship of catholic university students conference where I was surrounded with the presence of Jesus in every person I met and every speaker I heard. I encountered Christ in the eucharist multiple times...yet I walked away untouched.
The man who thought of me before he created the world, so he would know when to bring me into it came to earth. He humbly came as a baby, grew into his man, and was hung upon a cross to die. For me, and for my sins. He rose so that I may have eternal salvation. I know all of these things..yet for some reason my heart was not in it.
I encountered Jesus Christ multiple times over the weekend and went untouched. How selfish was I?
But our God is not a foreceful God. No- in fact, he allows us to make our own decisions. He created our hearts and he created them to know him. With knowledge of God and his love for us, we can make decisions with His will in mind. He takes us VERY seriously. God did not force me to see him, or force me to be changed. I made that decision myself.
Something was said at conference this last weekend that I did not take to heart until I came home and realized my selfishness.
Your God is whoever or whatever you make the most sacrifices for.
In taking that into prayer and reflecting on that, I quickly found out who I had made my God the last few weeks...and it wasnt Jesus, I can tell you that much.
My heart has been searching for love, and yearning to give it away. I have invested my heart in areas I should not have. My brain knows what is good for me, what God wants for me. But for some reason, my heart has thought otherwise.
My Big mamma, my gorgeous Bethany Hill came into my room last night and said some of the most profound words. Beauty is not something we always can see. Sometimes true beauty is a feeling. And sometimes we need people in our life to help us realize this. There are so many people in my life that God has blessed me with that allow me to see what is true beauty, and allow me to see that within myself. I cannot say thank you enough.
Here I sit..humbled my God's love for me. I had a phenomenal weekend away, on retreat, at a fellowship of catholic university students conference where I was surrounded with the presence of Jesus in every person I met and every speaker I heard. I encountered Christ in the eucharist multiple times...yet I walked away untouched.
The man who thought of me before he created the world, so he would know when to bring me into it came to earth. He humbly came as a baby, grew into his man, and was hung upon a cross to die. For me, and for my sins. He rose so that I may have eternal salvation. I know all of these things..yet for some reason my heart was not in it.
I encountered Jesus Christ multiple times over the weekend and went untouched. How selfish was I?
But our God is not a foreceful God. No- in fact, he allows us to make our own decisions. He created our hearts and he created them to know him. With knowledge of God and his love for us, we can make decisions with His will in mind. He takes us VERY seriously. God did not force me to see him, or force me to be changed. I made that decision myself.
Something was said at conference this last weekend that I did not take to heart until I came home and realized my selfishness.
Your God is whoever or whatever you make the most sacrifices for.
In taking that into prayer and reflecting on that, I quickly found out who I had made my God the last few weeks...and it wasnt Jesus, I can tell you that much.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Lots of great things have happened in the last few weeks.
So great, that it would take me an extensive amount of time to blog about them. (Which is why I havent..yet)
But today is different. Today was a tough day. Its hard when you realize you are letting your heart go places it shouldnt. When your brain knows whats right but your heart thinks otherwise. When the desires of your flesh want something the desires of your soul know is not the best decision for your future.
Being human. It's a tough battle. Especially when you are trying to keep your eyes on the cross- fixed on what true love means, and about what I deserve. I lose that vision so quickly, and that puzzles me.
Today it is a struggle to strive for holiness, more than in the past. But God is good, and His plan will prevail. And he makes all things work together for my good...I just gotta let him work.
Here is to a smarter tomorrow, where I allow Christ to point the way, instead of my own wants and desires.
So great, that it would take me an extensive amount of time to blog about them. (Which is why I havent..yet)
But today is different. Today was a tough day. Its hard when you realize you are letting your heart go places it shouldnt. When your brain knows whats right but your heart thinks otherwise. When the desires of your flesh want something the desires of your soul know is not the best decision for your future.
Being human. It's a tough battle. Especially when you are trying to keep your eyes on the cross- fixed on what true love means, and about what I deserve. I lose that vision so quickly, and that puzzles me.
Today it is a struggle to strive for holiness, more than in the past. But God is good, and His plan will prevail. And he makes all things work together for my good...I just gotta let him work.
Here is to a smarter tomorrow, where I allow Christ to point the way, instead of my own wants and desires.
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